Proverbs 15:30, "A cheerful look brings joy to the heart and good news gives health to the bones."
"When you put your faith in others, you can help them reach their potential. And you become an important influencer in their lives."

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

LEADING THE GROUP - My Eldest Sister

A lot of the traits of a leader I had learnt from my family. I was the third child in my family. The crossroads were never quite clear here. From the time our my childhood, my eldest sister had also been the leader. She always seemed to have it all under controlled. She was the rational and thorough type. May be its just part and parcel of being the eldest.

One of my earlier memory of her was a time we were leaving at a flat. It was usually during our bedtime. My sisters and I would sleep on the floor since there would be no room for us on the bed with my mom and dad. My eldest sister would then be sandwiched between my second sister and I. Both of us would cling onto her arm on ether side as she became to us our security for the night. Somehow, some time in the early morning; she would find herself abandon by her siblings just to find them cuddling with our parents. Hahaha... this happened quite often actually.

Her leadership was something I looked up too. Even now. She is someone I would run to for advices (not that I apply them) and depend on. Often people would wish for an older brother, but for me... I love it just the way it is.

She had set a certain standard for myself and my siblings, and I believe even fro those around her. Her leadership stands out and her lifestyle tells it all. She never commits to something she is unable to fulfill. She would as much as she could, be punctual and would do her best to keep to her words. Her promise is her word to keep.

Leadership is not about achievements, rather its about how we achieve them. Who are we achieving those goals with? Why are we doing the things we do? It is about the people we work with. It is about how we can influence those around us so that WE can become a better person individually and as a team. My sister seems to have that kind of leadership. Maintain the perspective and keeping on course.

Of course, this is one of the lessons I've learnt more about leadership from home. I've got my mom, dad and other siblings that have thought me more about life than most people I've met. Leadership starts at home.


Behold the Lord

"And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by renewing of your mind.”
Romans 12:2

Inside, you’re perfect –born again in the image of Jesus Himself. But outwardly do you find yourself falling frustratingly short of that perfection? Is there a solution? Yes! The secret lies in “the renewing of your mind.” Romans 12:2 tells us that, if you’ll renew your mind, you can actually be “transformed”. That word “transformed” is translated from the Greek word from which we get the term “metamorphosis.” It’s used in Scripture in two other places.

One of those places is when Jesus was transfigured on the Mount as He spoke with Moses and Elijah. The other is found in 2 Corinthians 3:18. It says, “ But we all, with the open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord.

Changed, transformed, transfigured! Those are powerful, exciting words, and describe what will happen to you as you spend time beholding the Lord in the Word and in prayer. As you spend time renewing your mind, your outer being will be transformed in much the same way as a caterpillar is changed into a butterfly. Instead of conforming to the image of the world, you’ll begin to conform to the image if the reborn spirit within you which is created in righteousness and true holiness.

Take time to get away from the world and study God’s Word. Meditate on it and let it change you from the inside out. Be transformed by the renewing of your mind and release the beautiful spiritual butterfly living in you!

Scripture Reading: 2 Corinthians 3:6-18

Adapted from Faith to Faith A Daily Guide to Victory
by Kenneth and Gloria Copeland

Wednesday, November 21, 2007


He said, "This is my son, Stephen, my hero!"

The struggle with self worth has been something I've struggled with for all these years. It is probably one of my weaknesses in life. The urge to find my worth through what I do and pleasing others in the process seemed to help me find a certain value in myself. It is an endless jouney to finding my worth.

I know of many people who feel the same as I do. My lack of worth is probably the lack of fathering. In recent years, as I worked, I found myself trying to please my bosses and hoping for their approval. The desire to please them became too overwhelming that I thought something mst be wrong. As a Christian, I knew that I am not to please people as to making them gods, rather to please God and to live for him only. I was wanting some kind of attention and recgnition.

Nearly a year ago, I went for a visit to my dad's house for Chinese new year. We were sitting in the living room. My dad had a few visitors and as his son, I greeted his guest and welcomed them into the house. He then introduced me to them and it was what he said that surprised me. In fact, it changed my life! He said, "This is my son Stephen, my hero." I could not believe my ears. It was someting I had not expected.

I praise the Lord for those kind words. I know that I am not quite the 'hero' but to hear it coming from my dad... it was approval and recognition long awaited.

Now imagine this with me. At the river Jordan, John the Baptist was preaching about the coming kingdom and the Christ. His words pierced the hearts of many to surrender and repentance. Then... in the midst of them was Jesus son of Joseph the carpenter. "Behold! The Son of Man... this is the Christ I am telling you about whose sandle straps I am not worthy to untie." And as Jesus approached him, He told John to baptist Him. As he came out of the water the heavens thundered and the clouds parted.

A voice thundered from the heavens, "This is my beloved Son whom I am well please!" And from the clouds the Spirit of God like a dove came upon Jesus the Beloved Son of God.
If you would take a moment to imagine the assurance Jesus had, one that He needed to hear for the task He was about the embark was bigger than one man could handle. God the Father's assurance was timely and comforting.

God is also calling us sons and daughters. We have been called children of the most high God. He is calling to you..."my child, I love you!"

Friday, November 16, 2007


I have two elder sisters whom I truly love. They are my role models and I've learnt so much from them. When I entered into the morning classes (primary four), my sisters told that I have to start being cool. So, they trained me how to "walk", "talk" and swing my bag pack across one of my shoulders.

There's something about having elder sisters. I would never have it any other way.I can't imagine having an older brother (I do have an elder brother from my dad's first marriage). My sisters were my advisors and adversaries. They would gang up on me from time to time, playing pranks on me. Once, they would hold the door shut and turn off the light in the shower and sing an errie tune to scare me. They knew I was afraid of the dark. Thank God I overcame the fear.

One lesson I've learnt from them is, don't mess with WOMEN!

I got my eldest sister mad one evening. She had asked me to do the dishes or something like it but I refused. We started a shouting battle in the living room. I thought I had won the battle as she turned around. Under my breath, not knowing she could hear it (I wasn't too good with whispering) I said, "You PIG!" with a smirk running through my face. She stopped! "Oh no!", I thought. "I'm dead!"

Suddenly she turned toward me, held a fist and drove those knuckles into my gut! She winged me. I didn't wanna show the pain, so I called her "PIG!" over and over again. That did not solve the problem obviously. She chased me out of the house and locked me out. She knew I had to come in soon. Well, the story ended with me getting beat up.

The lesson learnt is: DON'T MESS WITH YOUR SISTER!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007


Oh those years have brought such fond memories. As a child I used to ride bikes, climb trees, play the swings and more. Those years were blissful. Though I had grown through some tough times, I would distinctly remember the good innocent years of my childhood and eventually my adolescent years.

"Mummy", I croaked as my sisters would laugh at my then squeeky voice. It was hard to avoid. PUBERTY... how it came unexpectedly. Big feet and hands... everything seemed so out of proportion. "Mummy, I can't wear that kiddy shirt. I'll like jeans... the ones torn at its knees. Get me the big baggy ones. Everything must be 5 times my size." Those who have grown through the 80's and 90's would understand why the "up sized" clothings. We were into rap music, black hip hop. My mum could never understood why, but she would accommodate me anyway.

There were really some great memories in my adolescent year. I suppose my new found interest in sports were one great memory. I began to enjoy the extra strength. I was still a very skinny kid then. Other things were "girls". I had never observed these magnificent creature God had created. However, that would be another story. I've learnt to respect the ladies now for God has made them beautifully in His image.
I guess, I would ponder further and begin to blog a few episodes of my adolescent years... and my transition into my now 20 something.

I had been blessed nonetheless by the experiences I have gone through. All are significant to me and shaped me. God had been watching me through those years, good and bad, and protected me. No matter how far I had gone, He would still wrap His arms around me n assurance and say, "Welcome home, my beloved son. I'm glad you are safe."

Ecclesiastes 12:1
" Remember your Creator in the days of your youth, before the days of trouble come...."

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Are you ashamed?

There are many times I have felt inadequate and wanting to just crawl into a little hole somewhere. Being ashamed of my own identity. When growing up I had a very poor self image. But more then my self image was what I have grown to be passionately in love... Jesus!

When as a youth, there were many times people asked me if I were a Christian. I would not deny my religion, however, my faith and trust in Him was not real. I was ashamed of Jesus. Why?

Luke 9:26

"If anyone is ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his glory and in the golry of the Father and of His angels."

We will all be faced with the hard question of what and who we believe in. There would be question of our actions. There are the crossroads where people criticise you about your faith, Jesus is asking us this, "Are you ashamed of me?"

I have been at this crossroad and many times felt ashamed of Jesus. Now, I don't want to be silent. How could I when all He has done has changed me and made me new. My life is an adventure of trust and faith in Jesus Christ. I am puzzled at how many of us Christians would remain silent. I notice that lately in almost all my coversations I have choosen to share my journey in Jesus. Though I'm not perfect, it gives me no reason to stop praising Him.

Romans 1:16

"I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes..."

I pray that when you face the delima of choosing to praise Him or be ashamed... that you'll choose Jesus before your own reputation.


Tuesday, October 30, 2007


Sounds like a Pokemon line! If I remember it... there's a part in the song that says, "Gotta get them all! Gotta get them all!"

I just thought I'd post a rather random thought. Coming into the church ministry from being an engineer was truly a challenge. It was not just a personal challenge but for my family, friends and others very close to me. It had pushed us all to trust God more in faith and understanding that there's no other way to please Him without faith (Hebrews 11:6)


It's as though God had a 'poke-ball' and call me out to do the task. What skill and talent does this little 'pokemon' have?

When God called me into the ministry, it wasn't as though I never felt the prompting before. I knew in my heart since I was around 16-17, that I would serve in the church and minister to the people. I knew that my heart was for Jesus, but I was not ready then. There was some growing up to do. This desire in me was growing slow and steadily within my soul.

Imagine with me for a moment. Let's imagine that you were a... Pokemon. Apparently, like any other creature; you'll need to grow. Feeding, sleeping, playing and more. These are all part and parcel of a Pokemon's life in order to face its challenges. Every Pokemon has its own unique ability. It only needs training and nurturing. Every challenge you meet will increase your skill and intelligent. Now, if God was a Pokemon Master.... what type of Pokemon would you be? How would you serve your Master when He calls you to do your task.

I wonder, if God was a Pokemon Master... He'll silently cry to himself, "Gotta get them all! Gotta get them all!" It would be like God to want the whole world saved and He choose His ultimate Pokemon "JESUS!".

I know this is a rather random and hilarious thought, but think about it. If you were a Pokemon, what kind would you be? Are you willing to be trained and nurtured? Are you willing to try your best and sometimes be defeated, just to be called again for the next challenge? Would you consider God as the "Pokemon Master" a loving and caring person?

What kind of Pokemon would you be?

God is saying this to you even today, ".... I CHOOSE YOU!"

Wednesday, October 24, 2007


This is rather personal. I was contemplating whether it would be a good idea to post such feelings and experiences, but this is exactly the reason why I started "CROWS AND CROSSROADS" that I may share some of my expriences at these crossroads of life.

Note: Please be patient with my grammar. I will correct it again for better reading. God Bless!


Before my younger brother come into the world, I was the youngest child among my siblings. They were my sisters. I played with them what every child would normally play. We particularly enjoyed role playing such as weddings, house, students and teachers and many more. I enjoyed my childhood thoroughly. Climbing trees,running in the field, swimming... you name it, we have probably done it.

Some time along the way, I began to question my identity. More specifically my sexuality. I've heard the word "gay" many times before. It seemed rather provocative. My friends in school would tell me that if you like someone of the same gender, surely you must be "gay" and there's something wrong with you. This was what I believed. As I grew older, I realised that I had admiration for those of similar gender. I was torn apart. I thought, "Could I be gay?". This struggle with my identity remained with me for several years into my teen years. The more I thought of it, the more I felt convinced that I was somewhat attracted to those of the same gender. I had an identity crisis.
It didn't mean that I didn't have attraction to girls. I do. Very strongly. This made it more confusing. So, one day at a youth camp I prayed for God to help me. I wanted to know what was wrong with me. At that camp, I learnt that attraction and admiration is a normal part of growing up. My admiration for men was not because I had any homosexual tendencies, rather I was admiring them for their personality, characters, qualities and more. They were what I admired and wanted to become. I wanted to become a man.

The reason I had such misconceptions was that society and media often generalize admiration for certain types of sexual attraction. There is nothing wrong to admire a person even if they are of the same gender. A lot of boys admire Michael Jordan. Does it make them "gay"? No! Society and media, instead of correcting our way of thinking, has corrupted it. They tell us that any same gender attraction, or any kind of attraction for that matter, is sexual . We believe in such lies and eventually for some, they succumb to them. Admiration is not bad, it is learning to appreciate the beauty of God's creation.

The identity crisis is probably the one prevalent crisis in our cultures today. Just think about it. Identity is not just about sexuality but intellect, emotions and spirituality too. People go through identity crisis almost daily because we are always in transition: A toddler-child-teen-older teen-early adulthood-mid adulthood-adult-old age. We are always facing identity crisis . We've heard of quarter-life crisis, mid-life crisis and much more.


I know Jesus has the answer to your crisis. We can only find our true purpose and identity when we know Jesus Christ in whom all things are created. Give it some thought, are you in a crisis?

Col 1:16-17 (CEV)
"Everything was created by him, everything in heaven and on earth, everything seen and unseen, including all forces and powers, and all rulers and authorities. All things were created by God's Son, and everything was made for him.(17)God's Son was before all else, and by him everything is held together."

Thursday, October 18, 2007


Adapted for Our Daily Bread - Food for the Soul. Special Edition.
Dave Egner

1 John 4:7-16

verse 9&10. "This is how God showed his love amoung us:He sent His one and only Son into the world that we might live through Him. This is love: not that we love God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins."


"Sometimes love sure hurts!" The mother and father were expressing the difficulties and heartaches of guiding their children through their teen years. "Maybe if we didn't love them quite so much it wouldn't be so hard," the man added.

Even though love brings pain and sorrow what would life be without it? In his book The Four loves, C.S. Lewis wrote:

"To love all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you mustgive your heart to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully around hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness... The only place outside heaven you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers ... of love is hell."

To love is to take risks, to expose our hearts. Sometimes it hurts! It hurt Jesus Christ, but He kept on loving - even at the cost of His life. And He asked us to "love one another as I have loved you" (John 1:12)

Truly loving that spouse, that teenager, that neighbour, that colleague is Christlike, and its better than locking your heart in the coffin of self-centredness.

Thinking It Over:

How have you been hurt by those you've tried to love? Have you been tempted to withhold your love from them as well?

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Man of the House

I was only 15 back then. My family had been going through very tough times. These were moments I could remember very clearly as it were only yesterday. My father had hardly been home for quite some time. My mother had to raise my 2 elder sisters, my younger brother who was only 5 then and myself. Who could have imagined that those words would forever be etched in my memories.

My father walked in through the door on that fateful day. We had lunch together and it was one of the moments I truly treasured. Since my father was rarely home, these occasions were one that I held dear to my heart. After lunch, he looked at me and said, "Stephen, when I am not in the house you are the man of this house."

I never thought how this would have affected my life until more recent years. I am now 27 and those words continue to resound in my thoughts. How could a 15 year old ever be man? How was I able to know what manhood was? Daddy... could you show me, please?

These were some of my thoughts and cries. I thank the Lord for those moments of deep searching. I have a younger brother whom I truly adore and love. I happened to be talking to a friend of mine a couple of days ago. In the conversation, I realised that I had been very hard on my brother. I never gave it much thought until now. Why was I so hard on him? Why did I keep pushing him? Why? Then it dawned upon me that it was the very word my father had said to me. "... you are the man of this house." I wanted to be the man my father asked me to become when I was 15.

I really wanted to be all I could be to my mother, sisters and brother but I am not. I was unable to fill in the shoes of my father. I tried. I began to feel the responsibility to become a male representation at home. "O Jesus", I cried, "I don't know how to be a man. Who will show me?"

A book I read quite some years ago mentioned the author observing a middle aged man. The man had a very strong manly feature. Intensed and focused. Years of experiences and perseverence have left its marks on his expressions. Then the author said, "this was a mark of manhood". I reflected on these words. What is a man? It may take me a lifetime, but all I know is... I would one day be the man God wants me to be. I thank Jesus for my father. If he hadn't said those words I would not have begun this journey in pursuit of manhood.

My prayer:
"God, be my Father and teach me what I need to be a man after your heart."

Crows and Crossroads

Have you ever felt like you've got so much to do and so many decisions to make? You probably came to a time in your life where you felt like screaming, but no one's listening. It seemed like no one cares. I have! Many times.

Crows and Crossroads is about those moments. Moments I had to make those decisions. Moments of silent prayers and tears. Moments of rejoicing and laughter. These moments are found at those crossroads.

I just pray and hope that the entries here would have some impact on those who reads them. My hope and love is to glorify Jesus. To make him known in the everyday life.

We will all be at the crossroads one day... what are the decisions you will make?