Running away from the past doesn't mean overcoming it. There's a saying, "the past will always come to hunt you." I honestly believe this phrase. The past does come to hunt us, and for some... even on a daily basis. when I say 'past' I meant the experiences and memories that we dread and are regretful about.
My past have been hunting me almost on a daily basis. Some days are worse, and other days mild. Nonetheless, it comes and when it does, it takes no prisoners. The past somehow open up wounds that I thought were closed... feelings and emotions I prayed we're taken away. However, it isn't so. These emotional, mental and spiritual wounds are real and they hurt. Each wound had been randomly caused, but the enemy (Satan) had used them strategically as a weapon to keep my spirit weak and my morale at a constant low.
The healing.... I must want it! I need a doctor!
God, as the Good Physician would then take me into His 'clinic'. Ask me a few questions to determine the symtoms and causes. I would sometime have to remember the past, open up old wounds... to just be in the healing process. There is no quick fix... but a long process of healing. It is a process and from time to time the area of the wound would be pricked and probed by God... not to hurt me, rather to check for signs of healing. It takes time, but I must not want a quick fix, just the long and painful process of my wounds healing that were once inflicted by the past... and God would remind me over and over again.....
My past have been hunting me almost on a daily basis. Some days are worse, and other days mild. Nonetheless, it comes and when it does, it takes no prisoners. The past somehow open up wounds that I thought were closed... feelings and emotions I prayed we're taken away. However, it isn't so. These emotional, mental and spiritual wounds are real and they hurt. Each wound had been randomly caused, but the enemy (Satan) had used them strategically as a weapon to keep my spirit weak and my morale at a constant low.
The healing.... I must want it! I need a doctor!
God, as the Good Physician would then take me into His 'clinic'. Ask me a few questions to determine the symtoms and causes. I would sometime have to remember the past, open up old wounds... to just be in the healing process. There is no quick fix... but a long process of healing. It is a process and from time to time the area of the wound would be pricked and probed by God... not to hurt me, rather to check for signs of healing. It takes time, but I must not want a quick fix, just the long and painful process of my wounds healing that were once inflicted by the past... and God would remind me over and over again.....
"It's ok, I'm here and I'm gonna take care of you. Turst me. Lay back... I'll be gentle. So, tell me what's wrong? Where is the pain? Have you been taking any other medication? Who gave this medicine to you? It's ok... don't resist... I only want the best for you. This may hurt you, but it is necessary that I give you the Cure. We will need to visit your past from time to time, open the wound and start cleaning up the areas that are dead so that new 'cells' (life) can grow again. The wound will take time to heal properly, so we must make sure you have the regular check up. Don't worry, once we are over this wound... you'll be good as new. The scars would be there as a reminded... but remember Me... I'll take care of you... "
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