Its quite a challenge when we need to consider the things that are important in our lives. Lately, I find it more challenging since I've taken the role of a youth worker in my church. The transitions are not as smooth as I wanted it to be but, this is a tough world and somehow I just need to adapt.
One of the hardest thing to adapt to is the fact that people tend to forget that you're a person and focus on the "job" - meaning that we are related to based on the job we do, like the sick going to a doctor. I know I'm guilty of doing this to others as well. However, the pressure is consistent and just being a youth worker seems to make people feel either they're not worthy or I'm not worthy to be a person and a friend. This may not be true, but this is just how I feel about it.
As a youth worker or pastor, I'm expected to be on my toes at most times. I should know what's happening and like a magician that would pull rabbits out of a hat, I must have plans for everything I do. It may not be perfect but I do try.
I think it was a very profound and powerful prayer, but it also tells me that there are certain expectations I've yet to understand and grow into. I wouldn't try to fulfil these expectation, rather I'd learn to grow into them. I praise the Lord for the friends that are constantly supporting me. There are times, however, I feel completely lost. Obviously, everyone's been here. It does hurt sometimes when people put a label on me... then again, I must accept it and work toward improving myself. I can't change what people think about me, but I can change my attitude and be thankful.
In the midst of loneliness, I've wanted to feel pity for myself. I realise how selfish I would be because I hadn't given a chance to others to encourage and build me. I know I do have friends. I love them. Though they may not completely understand what I'm going through.... they are still here! And I love them for being who they are!
Someone said this once, "Give others a chance to encourage and compliment you."
"I need to put a new picture here... of my friends of course"
One of the hardest thing to adapt to is the fact that people tend to forget that you're a person and focus on the "job" - meaning that we are related to based on the job we do, like the sick going to a doctor. I know I'm guilty of doing this to others as well. However, the pressure is consistent and just being a youth worker seems to make people feel either they're not worthy or I'm not worthy to be a person and a friend. This may not be true, but this is just how I feel about it.
As a youth worker or pastor, I'm expected to be on my toes at most times. I should know what's happening and like a magician that would pull rabbits out of a hat, I must have plans for everything I do. It may not be perfect but I do try.
A really good friend of mine prayed this, "Jesus, help Stephen to be a leader that we need him to be."
I think it was a very profound and powerful prayer, but it also tells me that there are certain expectations I've yet to understand and grow into. I wouldn't try to fulfil these expectation, rather I'd learn to grow into them. I praise the Lord for the friends that are constantly supporting me. There are times, however, I feel completely lost. Obviously, everyone's been here. It does hurt sometimes when people put a label on me... then again, I must accept it and work toward improving myself. I can't change what people think about me, but I can change my attitude and be thankful.
In the midst of loneliness, I've wanted to feel pity for myself. I realise how selfish I would be because I hadn't given a chance to others to encourage and build me. I know I do have friends. I love them. Though they may not completely understand what I'm going through.... they are still here! And I love them for being who they are!
Someone said this once, "Give others a chance to encourage and compliment you."
"I need to put a new picture here... of my friends of course"
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