Seated here in my office where I am king. Well, at least for the very brief moment....

The past month had been a fantastic experience. Though I was very busy, it was a good feeling... and one of its highlight was celebrating my birthday with very special friends and of course my sweetheart. It's 28.... that's a great number.

People often fear growing up and aging. I understand theat fear... but I read a book that changed my perspective of growing up. I now look forward to becoming more matured... being a man! Becoming a man is one of my deepest aspirations, that shapes my very thought and focus.

Other highlights were the travelling I've done in the month which ended with my week in Singapore with Lorene, Timothy, Aunty Betty and Pastor Johnny. I actually ate durian... a fruit I disliked very much. But after tasting it, it wasn't too bad... I think I'd give it a go!! I'm slowly being converted... hahaha

Crossroads... well I went to a bridal show!! And I (we) had a good time.

Back from Singapore

It was a tired week at Singapore. However, I watched Wall.E when I got back. It's really good. I had a really great time laughing and just enjoying the movie. It's cute and very simple. Everyone must watch it!

"You must watch it!"

MY BIRTHDAY! ....Thank you...

It was spectacular.... I don't have the pictures yet, but I hope to get it and post it up here!

It was simple but the surprise was great. :)

I happened to have lunch on the 1st August, which was a Friday. Lorene and I went to Fun Wok in Kiulap. I actually asked if we could go to a vegetarian restaurant just around the corner but she convinced me otherwise.

So there we were having lunch and talking. She acted it out so well... and should have received a Grammy Award for just acting normal and not get all excited with the surprise that was just about to happen. I finished my meal and was just telling her that we should go for a walk but she continued to act so normally and changed the topic. I didn't realise anything until the cake! A bunch of the guys just appeared out of nowhere and placed a cake right in front of me singing the classic "Happy Birthday" song with all the other customers just staring at us. But wow! I am so blessed!

I wanna say more... but I'm lost for words! I love you guys... and most of all... I love YOU! :)

Thank you!

Running away from the past doesn't mean overcoming it. There's a saying, "the past will always come to hunt you." I honestly believe this phrase. The past does come to hunt us, and for some... even on a daily basis. when I say 'past' I meant the experiences and memories that we dread and are regretful about.

My past have been hunting me almost on a daily basis. Some days are worse, and other days mild. Nonetheless, it comes and when it does, it takes no prisoners. The past somehow open up wounds that I thought were closed... feelings and emotions I prayed we're taken away. However, it isn't so. These emotional, mental and spiritual wounds are real and they hurt. Each wound had been randomly caused, but the enemy (Satan) had used them strategically as a weapon to keep my spirit weak and my morale at a constant low.

The healing.... I must want it! I need a doctor!

God, as the Good Physician would then take me into His 'clinic'. Ask me a few questions to determine the symtoms and causes. I would sometime have to remember the past, open up old wounds... to just be in the healing process. There is no quick fix... but a long process of healing. It is a process and from time to time the area of the wound would be pricked and probed by God... not to hurt me, rather to check for signs of healing. It takes time, but I must not want a quick fix, just the long and painful process of my wounds healing that were once inflicted by the past... and God would remind me over and over again.....

"It's ok, I'm here and I'm gonna take care of you. Turst me. Lay back... I'll be gentle. So, tell me what's wrong? Where is the pain? Have you been taking any other medication? Who gave this medicine to you? It's ok... don't resist... I only want the best for you. This may hurt you, but it is necessary that I give you the Cure. We will need to visit your past from time to time, open the wound and start cleaning up the areas that are dead so that new 'cells' (life) can grow again. The wound will take time to heal properly, so we must make sure you have the regular check up. Don't worry, once we are over this wound... you'll be good as new. The scars would be there as a reminded... but remember Me... I'll take care of you... "

No title whatsoever. The past weeks had been very interesting. A time of discovering and evaluating. It took me away into isolation, being saparated from those I want to be with the most. Yet, I know it was important to allow the Holy Spirit to draw me in His presence.

I had been discovering more of myself... allowing the Holy Spirit to remind me of my goals, purpose and vision. Now, I know He is restoring my dreams... giving me new hope, teaching me, molding me.... guiding me.

I am ever so thankful for all you patient friends. Without the grace and support, it would have been harder.

God... thank you!

UPDATES

Coming soon!!!

WORDS

Lately, I've been stumbling over my words. Though it was never meant for evil or to hurt anyone, too often it does. Why? Would it be my lack of tack or the tone of voice? Is it the facial expression or does it come froth as an insult? What is it?

Nonetheless, words are not to be taken lightly... once it is said, you can't take it back. A joke said wrongly, a remark made sarcastically, an honest opinion said without thinking of the hearer's emotion... once said, it can't be taken back.

Call it being sensitive, but no one wants to feel as a lesser human.... I'm really sorry for hurting you with my words. It doesn't make me feel any better for saying what I did. I'm sorry....

Proverbs 18:21

"The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit."

Proverbs 16:24

"Pleasant words are a honeycomb, sweet to the soul and healing to the bones."